However, August was a pretty intense. For awhile now I got a strong sense that I was fluctuating between two Timelines. Each time there was a Shift it would take me a couple days for my body to catch up and adjust and the stream of events and relationships kept taking sharp turns. It was confusing.
Then in the Spring I noticed that these Shifts were becoming more frequent, by a month at a time, then weeks and then days. I use a pendulum (a bead on a string) to get feedback on my subjective states. Often I would pick up a coming Event a head of time so that gave me some confidence that what I was "getting" had some truth to it, while knowing "truth" is subjective and ever changing.
But using this method was driving me crazy as the Outcomes would only last for a short time.
Now, I don't live my life according to a pendulum or any information or dogma I might receive. I just live my life and try to stay aware of the events and the energy around me.
In August though, the Shifts were coming almost daily. After awhile I didn't even bother and tried to stay the Unconcerned Observer. Until last week. Wednesday actually. I was getting pains from my ankle to my head only on the right side and never in the same place through the day. I couldn't breath and could barely walk a couple of blocks though I'm in great shape. I became unreasonably angry for no reason. In fact, most of the people at work, staff and customers (I work in an art store in Santa Fe, usually a pretty chill place) kept going off on each other. One of the managers was fired for arguing with a customer.
And the next day, it was like a rainbow came out after a storm. My energy was higher and my mood mellow. I noticed I could barely register any negativity even though it had been a couple of weeks of great disappointment in several relationships. They no longer registered.
Now a few days later my body pains subsided and my creativity is coming back from a long dry spell. My appetite is becoming normal after a few days of binge eating.
Sleep was all crazy, either 4 hours at a time or 10. Dreams were really deep but I remember one where it was being explained to me that a major healing cycle was being modified and shortened rather than thousands of years from now. I also had dreams, one after another of relatives that had past.
So who knows what is really going on. All I know is that I went through a very disorienting time with a lot of turmoil and now I feel almost like my memory has been erased. Could this video have a clue?