Sunday, July 25, 2010

Through the Looking Glass

I can't shake what happened yesterday. There is no doubt in my mind that part of me woke up at 4:30am while the other half slept in till 7. Where is that "Other Beth" off to? Was her life significantly changed because she didn't send out the post cards? Did she have enough time to go to the Farmer's Market and get flowers?
Where else is her life diverging from "Mine"?
What am I supposed to do differently? What risks am I supposed to take?
There is still a sense of Hyper=Reality. Everything has a feeling of being Intense and full of Potential.
"I am real!" said Alice, and began to cry.
"You won't make yourself a bit realler by crying," Tweedledee remarked: "there's nothing to cry about."
"Alice in Wonderland"
"We're not in Kansas anymore Toto"
Somewhere Over the Rainbow by IZ
PS. The next day at work, the adjoining shop was playing this song.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

A Groovy Day

Woke up in a fog, but couldn't go back to sleep. Even though it was 4:30am.
I opened the curtain to catch the early sun and had that same Hyper=Real sensation. I must say it took a bit to calm me down. I had an overwhelming feeling that I also was asleep. Something had "split" me and I really didn't feel with it until the alarm went off at 7am.

Used the Time to write out postcards, signed "Love, Beth". It made sense to use this amped up feeling. So I send out little Love Bombs.
Left early so I could go to the Farmer's Market. Food has been tasting so much better since it opened. Of course, a bit more than our SuperBiz at the Mall. But neither am I spending money on transportation right now. And I know that everything has been picked withing a few hours.
I splurged on a bouquet of Irish Bells and Queen Anne's Lace.
A coffee and a croissant at the French Bakery.

Go over last night's totals to pass on to the owner while I munch. Then do a Blessing for the Store. Thing will be different. Our "Snookie" quit and is off the schedule now. Cute as a button she is, but the drama was making this job difficult.
Met some ladies from New Zealand that were spending the summer on motorcycles with their husbands.

Checked in with my Posse. Of all things, God has given me three young men to pal with. Two work for me. The other is around the corner so we all bump into each other often, laughing.
I manage with Texting. I wish I had had a vision on that so I could have told my Business Ed Teacher when she said I would be a failure without taking shorthand.

As I get home, I start to chill a block away. A flutter of panic attack. I couldn't figure what was upsetting me. Till I remembered the morning.
Are you abducted if they screw with your "time"?
Got over that real quick and made fried rice with a bunch of vegetables from the Market.
The thunderstorms have started up again. The air smells of pine.
A Gin and Tonic and kick back listening to KSUT under the headphones.
Feeling Groovy by Simon and Garfunkel

Friday, July 23, 2010

Dream of 23

I Dream I had about a month ago:
I was shown a rough quartz crystal rod.
23 was IMPRINTED on my Brain.
Then I was shown a perfectly balanced crystal. Below was another crystal that was brown with the toxins it had absorbed.

"Robert Temple wrote a book called The Sirius Mystery - which deals with Earth's connection to the Sirius star system.
To Egypt, the 23rd of July, when Sirius starts to rise the waters of the Nile begin to flood. Then it meant fertility, that is one reason, for she was Isis. Sirius, Isis, the great mother of the gods. Even the Swiss celebration day, is the 1st of August. This is a Sirius relative.
Our solar system is born in from the womb of Isis. Sirius B, which is Isis , is made of iron (radio astronomy has shown). The iron of Sirius b, is the same as the iron in our blood and the iron of Earth and of our solar system. Sirius is our blood. We resonate to her. She is older than our solar system, which is a combination of interstellar debris, including the gas clouds, our sperm of Osiris/Orion. The iron in our blood comes from Sirius, its position in the sky, could thus be considered to resonate to Sirius's position of influence. Iron is the only true magnetic element."
There was Thunder and Lightnining all day today


"Ahhh. Now I can see. Basically, we have a 'Cardinal' T-square currently in transit. This means, we have three main points in conflict, with an empty spot that demands compensation for the equation to balance. Cardinal signs are the ones that are active and reactive - Aries, Cancer, Libra and Capricorn.

In a way, they are probably the most volatile quality...everyone is vying for a voice or even for control. During the worst of the fighting here, the aspect was a Grand Cross...with the Sun in Cancer completing the square. That is passing, the Sun is in Leo today as a matter of fact and as the Sun moves higher in degree, we will be back to the T-square and a major imbalance. My opinion is, that with the Sun in Cancer, the energy was demanding a certain aspect of caretaking. There is a huge focus on new beginnings (Jupiter and Uranus in Aries) - one that involves breaking free of old paradigms and rising above things.

Another part of the T-square is Pluto in Capricorn (transformation). The Aries energy makes things exceptionally volatile (Aries is Fire, and these two planets together are pretty much describing an explosion, or a bomb going off) and Pluto is about going deeply into the issues. Caretaking isn't always pretty - I mean, think of tough love. Clearing old energy, going down deep and stirring the muck, get things out in the open and clear the air, so to order to serve a clean fresh start.

Mercury in Leo shines the light on a sense, holding the space for such clearing to occur. It shows up in this chart in the 12th house, the house that demands resolution of issues in order to move forward into 'birth' - the first house. Also, Leo is unconditional love, so that idea of being brave and staying present for what is said is a big one...reinforced BIGTIME now with the Sun in Leo.

Neptune and Chiron describe a huge wound in our consciousness. The main metaphor I see out there now, is the hole in the ocean floor of the gulf of Mexico. But think of it as just one representation in the whole pattern of reality. It is there, somehow, for everyone on an individual level. Think of the ocean (Neptune) as a metaphor for dreams, both real and ideal. Venus, Mars and Saturn have been in Virgo...Saturn just shifted sign into Libra - the new year started out with Saturn in Libra, but it went retrograde into Virgo and now its coming back out. Virgo energy describes perfection, getting things right.

All of this energy is looking for balance between masculine and feminine energies out in the world, and especially with Saturn in the mix, it means 'getting things back on the right track.' Also, we are looking at creating a new timeline here, since Saturn describes TIME."

Thanks to Bridger @FCN 4 the Above.

Bridging a Connection

Now I'm linking in odd patterns.
I'm dumping all that Energy in the Cantina. Let them have it. There is a continuous Flow of People from all over the world who gather there, listening to the Band at Happy Hour.
Let That Energy Flow.
The Three Hematite Necklaces, blessed on the Buddha Full Moon, were passed out.
"The name comes from the Greek word for blood. It has been used as an amulet against bleeding, and so is known as the "blood stone". When arranged like the petals of a flower, it is referred to as the "iron rose". Native American folklore states that war paint made from hematite will make one invincible in battle."

Crossing the Bridge

About 18 months ago, about when this was taken, I was getting a strong urge to do some traveling and see where it took me. I gave up all my stuff, went to each one to help and bond and by a quirk of Fate, ended up here.

I went from
"There" to "Here"
on many levels.
One was a shift in belief system. I was having so much synchronicity and holding it back was giving me migraines. I decided that when my most heavy responsibilities were done I would just open myself to what ever came my way. I lost a lot, but the coincidences just became more frequent.
I try to allow myself to go with the flow.
Sacred Geometry Patterns showed up. And many dreams of past Kings and Past Lives.
There is Pepin and Richard and Louis the XIV.
They are located in a straight line that intersects with an 8 pointed star. What common thread goes through the lives of these three men?
I think the Bears are after them. LOL!

In the Dream with Bear We cross a River.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

A Blast From the Past

Part of the process of Transitioning is to own up to your past.
This past week brought up memories of Flynn. We traveled in the same circle of friends and got involved briefly. We handled things in an immature way.

Yesterday while talking to my staff about unusual things, Flynn walked in.
Ten years and 1400 miles later I finally get closure.

The other thing about Transition is that God sends a coincidence to let you know who is in charge behind the scene.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Shine On Crazy Diamond

I woke up to a dream where I was hiring someone. The first person was leaving. They were quite heavy and dense. The second seemed normal but bland and I was interviewing to replace them. The third person was completely covered in diamonds and they will be starting shortly.

Shine On You Crazy Diamond by Pink Floyd
City Lights from Space
The shape of the crop circle reminded me of a honey comb. Here is a site of a Bee Shaman.
Bee as a symbol of royalty.

Friday, July 16, 2010


I suspect that the layers of reality correspond to the chakras of the body.
Joseph Campbell in one of his lectures talked about "dieing" to our lower chakras that govern our need for survival, and then "resurrecting" to the heart chakra where we are concerned for others. He felt that the majority of civilization resided in their root chakras. The point of living becomes maintaining a home and success gained through competition.

What happens to the community that rises to the occasion and lives in their Heart?

The Way to Illuminaion by Joseph Campbell

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Good Vibrations

Things are still "ending".
No coffee. My French Pot shattered. The fridge quit. Pitch the wasabi I just bought. I bought an air mattress because I am so transitional right now and I woke up to that being flat. So groceries and a sleeping bag tomorrow. I lost my favorite jewelry too.

But I have my theories about all this.
At one time I was "shown" in my dreams how every event, place and person is layered with versions of themselves from the most evil to the most pure. We have the free will to manage our spirituality so that we become compatible with what ever version fits at the time. Each of us has our own little bubble of reality as we go through life. A Happy Bubble may be with in a few feet of a Sad. It's Swiss Cheese Reality.

I don't feel that people who inhabit "Evil Bubbles" are necessarily bad. We choose our parents and situations before birth to give us the perfect petri dish to grow in. Some may need a hardship to overcome which gives insight or compassion. Some offer themselves up for sacrifice.

Nor are we stuck in one place. The Theory that I am playing with is that by our efforts we can influence the rate of vibration which changes the Bubble we are compatible with. And as we increase our vibration, we loose things and relationships that are of a lower rate.
In the three months I've been here I've worked hard to release heavy emotions and I physically have changed my appearance. As I'm meeting new friends, things from my past don't seem to work anymore.

In the Bigger Picture, I wonder if the Planet itself is going through a vibrational change?
There are all sorts of speculation out there.
D0loras Cannon's book, "Convoluted Universe", based on her work with patients doing hypnotherapy, found that when she took people into the future during their hypnosis there seemed to be several possible worlds. Are we at the point where we should be picking out furniture for our new homes?

If you study the Schuman Resonance, then there is data that the planet is changing it's vibration. It reminds me of hummingbird wings. You know they are there, but their vibration is too fast to see them. Can we vibrate so fast that we physically no longer reside in the same "space"?

I wonder how much of the Solar Precessional Cycle is responsible for the heating up of the planet? Some suggest that the entire Solar System is changing. Are we in a cosmic summer? There are places like the Angkor Wat Temple in Cambodia whose architecture is based on the mathematics of the Cycle. One has to wonder where the Priests got their information and how important is the message that they went to such extremes?

Is this Cosmic Summer the Cosmic Sun/Son that returns? Are our myths and rituals based on this 26,000 cycle where the Solar System goes through an amazing change of vibration/ascension?
Does this summer's heat wave indicate that the Sun/Son has indeed resurrected?

Good Vibrations by The Beach Boys
Convoluted Universe by Doloras Cannon
Schuman Resonance
Solar System Changing
Angkor Wat

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Approaching the Tipping Point

Things are shifting from "Mom went crazy and ran away."
to " Wow! Grandma lives in DisneyLand!"

The photo of Chaplin walking off into the sunset seems to be a symbol for heading to that Vanishing Point. Every aspect of my life is in suspended animation...neither here nor there. So I'm trying to be aware of what to leave behind and what to look forward to. I try to maintain a state of "Observation" with expectations of "Contentment". That pretty much covers all bases and leave it up to God to decide how this is going to play out.

Moving up here was a Grand Experiment.
A Leap of Faith Without a Parachute.
And the rules were that things would unfold with the least amount of effort from me. The Game for the summer was to be open to clues from God and take direction from that.
Like the Lilies of the Field, I am blessed by God's bounty. And here I am poised with potential.

The only other rule of the Game that I can think of was
to play "As If". For what ever reason they had me on Phenobarb at five, it has left me with a quirky brain. I have a very hard time going from Point A to B logically. My sequential thinking has craters in it. I learned to Visualize my Goal and that worked a lot better. Having grown up with my CS Grandmother, that sort of Prayer was just taken for granted. I did not have to over come any resistance to accepting that it was possible.

It took a long time to figure out that not everybody was thinking that way. Was there some sort of deficiency in me? It hasn't been very long that I realized that by accepting that difference I had created a unique bubble of reality and people who stepped in were then part of that difference.
Part of that Experiment was to see if it made a difference "AS IF" it did. And the rule is that I can only observe, I can't point it out. Plants in my bubble are luxurious and babies are content. Cats wrap around my ankles. What if I could bring that sort of Vibe to a community? My boundaries are the grocery store to the West and the laundry to the East.

I'm dumping all that Energy into that space.
The Patio Cantina is Ground Zero.
Bar Guide
Meaning of "Clue"
Ariadne promised Theseus the answer to getting out of the Labyrinth if he would take her back to Athens and marry her. He agreed to this compromise and she gave him a ball of thread which he could attach to the entrance of the Labyrinth. This would allow him to re-trace his steps whenever his wished.
Crop Circles during this time:

Monday, July 5, 2010

Happy Fourth of July

I couldn't get the key to work. I lost my last twenty when I went to buy a cup of coffee. The electricity was off at my place when I got back. Lost my phone. Clusters like these usually mean to watch out for an Ending.
It has the feel of moving on.

The Fourth of July was sweet however. I made it in time to catch an old fashioned parade and then walked down to the street dance.
A Happy Time was had by All.

Double Exposure

Saturday, July 3, 2010

All the Little Foxes

While trying to get a grasp on what the meaning of all THIS is I was given a Vision of four people in Dark Clergy Robes performing a ceremony. It had the feel of another Life Time.
What drives me is to bring in Peace. The object of their ceremony was to prevent that.

The next day a friend invited me to go along while he made deliveries in the next town.
On the way we saw an Eagle eating a deer that had been hit. His companions were two crows. I asked my friend to take a photo.

At the end of the day we had two more stops.
One, coincidentally, was at the address of my "enemy"....and a fox ran across the property.
The next stop was across town. Again, the address was the same as a friend of this "enemy" and another fox comes slowly walking across the lawn about 20 feet away, stopping a bit to stare me down. Another walks by carrying something that means a lot to the another of that group. And a fourth fox comes out of it's hole....the fourth friend likes to hide it's intentions.

It had been almost 30 years since I had seen a fox and that evening I had seen four in less than an hour.
I remember reading Starbird's book where she talked about the symbol of the fox.

"Two more illustrations from Margaret Starbird's book that I would like to share with you here are, first, Mary Magdalene at the Foot of the Cross - note the red fox, symbol of the hated Catholic priesthood..."
Fly Like an Eagle by Steve Miller Band

Friday, July 2, 2010

Minding My Own Business

A Spiderweb of Connections.
Alphabet Soup of Potential.
Let's see how this all plays out.
Stevie Ray Vaughn