Friday, October 22, 2010

Pulling the Curtain

I'm closing the Curtain now while I Undress.
I'll be back around Thanksgiving.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Faces, Fashion and Photography

Something a little fun.
I love seeing photos of people from other cultures. And I love fashion. Unfortunately most of this would not be well received in this Cowboy Town... and I'm past the point of being hip. Maybe fashionable. From these blogs I think I want to see Milan. Enjoy!
My little model is six here. She was playing dressup.
My favorite is "The Satorialist". His photos are lush as he captures the street style around the world.
And he recommended Garance Dore'.
"Jak & Jil" are edgy and have behind the scenes.
As an artist I liked "Cool Hunter".
"Go Fug Yourself" puts outrageous fashion in it's place.
And I've always had a soft spot for Courtney Love.
Japanese Goth. ??
"Running Horse Fashions" is more of what I think of as Native American rather than the Twins wearing headbands.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Lucid Dreaming

It was a mistake to listen to the Beta Brainwave video before bed. Finally at 6am I gave up trying to sleep and got up and made coffee. I'm not sleepy though.

Bizarre images ran through my mind. Often I will "imagine" talking to a Helper. We've had some interesting conversations.

Now I'm told that they can't reach me where I am.
And where I am is slipping into the lucid dreams of something not of this planet. These bouts of Hyper Reality are tastes of it. What is coming up will last three weeks.
The concept is making me queasy.

Noon. Just woke up from a lucid dream with the three year old. I could feel her hugs. It had about five separate "visits". Half way through she was sad and wanted her Mommy. The last visit she was mentally about 20 in a 3 year old body.
I think I was being shown an example.
Then the dreams did the same thing with a handful of people I was "told" read this blog.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds

Most everything is packed. I could put all my stuff in the back seat of a car. Maya is giving up her shop also. Our lives seem to parallel.
I've started over so many times. Why am I having such a feeling of mild dread? I read over my blog to get a clue. Three certainly seems to be the theme. It brought up a dream I had many years ago.

There were three full length oval mirrors, about ten feet from the beach in the ocean, set in a triangle. tilted up. Light started coming out of the mirrors and met at a point above where the three merge to form a laser light. Walking past on the sand was an oriental man with a big smile of double rows of teeth. A diamond set in each tooth.

I "get" that the third part of this "integration" will start soon and last till mid November...and that it will be difficult. I let that float in one ear and out the other. I don't want to "program" the experience. But things are feeling odd. Where will this lead? Can it get any more insane? I see now why my family has such a difficult time with me. LOL! I don't know if I could be a friend to me.

Tomorrow I'm picking up my camera after having it fixed. Sent off a bunch of Halloween cards. To the three year old I drew stick figures and hearts. Two go to England. One is to a gal I met this summer who had come to find the grave of her American GI dad that she didn't know. It was like finding a old friend. The other was to Lillian who I met when I went to England 20 years ago. I just found an old card from her. Me who throws out everything, how did I come to save that for so long. Will she still be there? 20 years ago! Where did the time go?

I won't have the Internet soon. I don't get a sense of being here till all this is over. I'm feeling lost. Even my Helpers left. Bear is always at my side and now all I find is a bear skin rug. I picked up an Eagle this summer and it has flown away. I would have thought they were my imagination run wild except for the information they gave me. Now I'm alone. Not sad, but disoriented.
Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds - Beatles
Beta Binaural Beat

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Way To Go!!!


"We’d like you to join us in Washington, DC on October 30 — a date of no significance whatsoever — at the Daily Show’s
“Rally to Restore Sanity”.
Ours is a rally for the people who’ve been too busy to go to rallies, who actually have lives and families and jobs (or are looking for jobs) — not so much the Silent Majority as the Busy Majority. If we had to sum up the political view of our participants in a single sentence… we couldn’t. That’s sort of the point."

Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert used their shows last night to announce dueling rallies in Washington, D.C. Though both will take place on October 30 on the National Mall at the same time, each touted a slightly different theme. Stewart called his a "Rally to Restore Sanity," while Colbert was all about his "March to Keep Fear Alive." "Are you scared?" Colbert asked at one point. "Reasonably concerned," Jon replied. Stewart described his rally as a "million moderate march" aimed at showing that "we are here. We're only here though until six because we have a sitter."

Satellite rallies are being organised around the US.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Bounce Back

Pulled out of the Void and noticed that Fall had come while I was away. The hills are a warm blend of russet, browns and yellow. And where did I go? I can hardly remember. Like trying to bring up a movie you might have seen as a kid, some of the highlights are there but not the plot. I can't remember MySelf. And the Dream Message is that "I'm Gone".
Forever. Done.
Maybe there will be a whole new movie? I'm trying to prepare myself for the third bout of this stuff. The dreams say there are three parts to all of this, the last being the most difficult with possibly seizures. I warned my Mom. She still hasn't forgiven me for putting her through the fear of me having seizures as a kid. We both know that they are connected somehow. Bless her for stepping up to the plate on this. I don't think I want to do this alone.

I've been listening to the CD Maya gave me of the Singing Bowls going through the Chakras. I started at the Root, listening over and over and then letting it sink in for half a day. After I had gone through the 7 Chakras I started on Brainwave videos, only having listened to the Gamma with binural beats to balance both sides of the brain.
It makes sense to recalibrate the vibrations of the mind and body. I'm blessed that I have a couple of free weeks to play around with this. I had made Chakra wall quilts before to help focus. Maybe I'll start that again?

Maya and I are still digesting the story of the children in the jars. We both sense that the children were sacrificed to the "Beast". Magic had been done on the site and brought up an energy that they couldn't contain. So they buried it. We feel the "Beast" is residue energy from the violence of the age of dinosaurs. Not the animals but the basic rage of lizard life, a ball of energy hanging around the planet until wizards started bringing it forth, giving it form. We feel the Beast is gone now.
Chakra colors and their meaning
BrainWave Chart
Cymatics - Bringing Matter To Life With Sound
Gamma Waves
Root Chakra Meditation

Monday, October 11, 2010


Yesterday was my personal Vanishing Point.
The Owner asked if I wanted to leave on Saturday while being paid till the end of the month. It gives you some idea of the stress I've had in dealing with her Consultant. Usually the owner checks out all her decisions with her lawyer first. He will probably advise her that she should not have done this as it implies responsibility. I'm not a person who sues though. If anything I feel a bit guilty because I knew that my time in Durango had an expiration date. This is giving me an easy out.

I'm going to spend the next couple of weeks getting my Groove back. Mr. Cool gave me some Official Medicinal Herb and I'm going to sink into the Void and listen to music. Maya gave me CDs of Singing Bowls and her friend, Kelly G. Jeppesen. She thinks he is working for Disney now.
I'm going to use this time to be a hermit and get my health back, detoxing, putting Tea Tree Oil on the souls of my feet and making power shakes. I prefer using ReLiv but found some a food powder with vitamins and minerals at the Food Co-op. Throw in some frozen strawberries, blueberries, banana and almond milk.
What the body needs!

When one door shuts another opens and the day before I left I met someone who is interested in repping my jewelry in Sante Fe. I've been making chunky, ethnic style necklaces with semi-precious stones which I charge up first. I have a friend who might EBay some for me also. After this last job I NEVER want to work for anyone else again.

Mr. X comes in my dreams almost every night. We are usually in a swimming pool. He is on a floating lounge chair while I'm in the water. I "get" it means that while he is of the World, I am of the subconscious. Maya has reunited with her Lost Love. We know that we would have never bothered with any of this Stuff if we had been distracted with a love life. These guys are going to be pleasantly surprised at the power of the Mojo we bring to their lives.

Vanishing Point
Time is a construct of the human brain and time has been given immense importance while everyone waits for 12.12.12. It's my opinion that 10.10.10 was the Cosmic Fork in the Road. Feel free to disagree. It is a work in progress. Maya and I both feel that there has been a recent shift into a higher dimension. There is overlap. Some people got it and some didn't. There seems to be confusion and while some people are merrily floating down the stream, others are on the verge of panic attacks.
I was having some confusion yesterday as I was getting contradictory outcomes. I was picking up that my daughter was on her way to see me and that she never left. Both were true. It made my head spin. In this life she chose not to come. Being a thousand miles away and homeschooling 3 small kids I totally understand. However, her choice will have profound consequences. Not that one will be better than the other.
Kelly G Jeppesen
Singing Bowls
852Hz - Returning to Spiritual Order
Vanishing Point
Charging Crystals

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Dream a Little Dream of Me

I went through my dream journal last night and was surprised to see that my dreams had for told all that would happen this past month. There was no way I could have guessed what those images were referring to then, but looking back, the story was clearly there. Evidently I have spent the last 18 months working through this drama in my sleep. What has me a bit disturbed today, however, is what is coming up. If this part was predicted then I can expect the next part.
In the Dreams I had been putting three parts together. Three floors of a house, three parts of a banana peel... Sometimes I have a tree growing out of my head. Sometimes the tree is filled with birds and rubies. There was often a Christmas Tree in the corner when the third missing piece returned.
My regular life is one part, the little girl who talks to my mother is the second and the third is coming. I'm only 2/3 the way along.

Maya "got" that it was important to go back to my Mother's to have her help me with this. And my Mother urged me to return. I'll be leaving my job at the end of the month. The other person who will help with this is Mr. X. This guy has been visiting my dreams for years. He has the third missing puzzle piece. I have an idea who it might be, but not for sure.
He's been showing up in my dreams lately, kissing me on the cheek. Maya says he and I have shared many life times together. I'm looking forward to the return of my good friend.
Dream a Little Dream of Me - Zoey Deschanel
I've been doing some research on sacrifice. It's something I've been drawn to but also avoided.
IF I had been sacrificed in a past life, it wasn't a novelty. Nor has it stopped. Here is a link about what is being done to children now and why. It's gut wrenching. I can't validate the truth of it, but have heard these stories before.
Pentagon workers tied to Child Porn PS.

As I was going to sleep last night I had a vision of underground storage filled with ancient clay jars. A small child peeped over the edge of one. I realized that each jar had a child who had been sacrificed. I gently let the child know I was here for her and slowly the other jars started to stir. I didn't push it as I sensed they were dealing with too much trauma and that they slowly had to recover.

Today I came across this:
"Gobekli Tepe is located in the northern end of the fertile crescent....the origins of human civilization back several millennia......
[T]his may be the earliest evidence for human sacrifice: one of the most inexplicable of human behaviours and one that could have evolved only in the face of terrible societal stress … victims were killed in huge death pits, children were buried alive in jars...."

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Jaguar Shaman

While I was going through this ordeal I found Ross Lewallen's art that spoke to me. He was kind to let me post some.


What the hell happened?
I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel but not sure what will happen next.

My mother kidnapped me and took me to Urgent Care. A classic case of Bell's Palsy. Not a stroke because I could touch my finger to my nose. We all glossed over the week long headache.
Now my face is about back to level but I kind of doubt that I will look the same. And I sense I have the brain function of a ten year old.

Mom whipped up a Prayer Circle, fed me and listened to my story while we hot tubbed. The most amazing part of this whole ordeal is that my very sensible Taurus mother felt it made sense. In fact, she ended up making contact with the part of me that had fragmented. A small girl comes to here now and though they don't talk the girl shows her things. Talking to spirits is not something my mother accepts nor wants but this just came to her and she has fallen in love with this child. In one of their adventures the girl found a rabbit which is what I am often in my dreams.

I don't know where things will lead from now. Everything seems upside down. Maya says it is because The Window closed and the planet shifted into 5th dimension. There is chaos while things adjust. I have to admit that I don't know much about this, but I agree on the chaos part.
Some views on the 5th Dimension: