Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Bless the New Year

If my dreams come true, then this will be one incredible Year!
I'm ready for the Calvary to come over the hill now.

Help! by the Beatles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sXh4EuJa2TU

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Merry Christmas

No one knows what day Jesus Christ was born on. From the biblical description, most historians believe that his birth probably occurred in September, approximately six months after Passover. One thing they agree on is that it is very unlikely that Jesus was born in December, since the bible records shepherds tending their sheep in the fields on that night. This is quite unlikely to have happened during a cold Judean winter. So why do we celebrate Christ's birthday as Christmas, on December the 25th?

The answer lies in the pagan origins of Christmas. In ancient Babylon, the feast of the Son of Isis (Goddess of Nature) was celebrated on December 25. Raucous partying, gluttonous eating and drinking, and gift-giving were traditions of this feast. In Rome, the Winter Solstice was celebrated many years before the birth of Christ. The Romans called their winter holiday Saturnalia, honoring Saturn, the God of Agriculture. In January, they observed the Kalends of January, which represented the triumph of life over death. This whole season was called Dies Natalis Invicti Solis, the Birthday of the Unconquered Sun. The festival season was marked by much merrymaking. It is in ancient Rome that the tradition of the Mummers was born. The Mummers were groups of costumed singers and dancers who traveled from house to house entertaining their neighbors. From this, the Christmas tradition of caroling was born.

In northern Europe, many other traditions that we now consider part of Christian worship were begun long before the participants had ever heard of Christ. The pagans of northern Europe celebrated the their own winter solstice, known as Yule. Yule was symbolic of the pagan Sun God, Mithras, being born, and was observed on the shortest day of the year. As the Sun God grew and matured, the days became longer and warmer.
It was customary to light a candle to encourage Mithras, and the sun, to reappear next year.

Huge Yule logs were burned in honor of the sun. The word Yule itself means "wheel," the wheel being a pagan symbol for the sun. Mistletoe was considered a sacred plant, and the custom of kissing under the mistletoe began as a fertility ritual. Hollyberries were thought to be a food of the gods. The tree is the one symbol that unites almost all the northern European winter solstices. Live evergreen trees were often brought into homes during the harsh winters as a reminder to inhabitants that soon their crops would grow again. Evergreen boughs were sometimes carried as totems of good luck and were often present at weddings, representing fertility. The Druids used the tree as a religious symbol, holding their sacred ceremonies while surrounding and worshipping huge trees.

In 350, Pope Julius I declared that Christ's birth would be celebrated on December 25. There is little doubt that he was trying to make it as painless as possible for pagan Romans (who remained a majority at that time) to convert to Christianity. The new religion went down a bit easier, knowing that their feasts would not be taken away from them.

Christmas (Christ-Mass) as we know it today, most historians agree, began in Germany, though Catholics and Lutherans still disagree about which church celebrated it first. The earliest record of an evergreen being decorated in a Christian celebration was in 1521 in the Alsace region of Germany. A prominent Lutheran minister of the day cried blasphemy: "Better that they should look to the true tree of life, Christ."

WHILE WE'RE AT IT
Constantine needed to organize his vast empire so he mixed the emerging Christianity (of which there were many) with the pagan. His mother, who was a Druid Priestess, "found" many of the sacred sites in Jerusalem to back up his plan.He organized the Council of Nicea to create ONE version of the Bible out of many.
http://www.columbia.edu/cu/augustine/arch/sbrandt/nicea.htm

Timeline of Constantine
http://www.google.com/search?q=constantine+council+of+nicea&hl=en&tbs=tl:1&tbo=u&ei=_GgyS8mkHtH6nAfs0vX1CA&sa=X&oi=timeline_result&ct=title&resnum=11&ved=0CCsQ5wIwCg

"Zeitgeist" (movie) explains alot of the symbolism of the Bible.
http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/dloads.htm

"History of God" by Karen Armstrong is a great book. Basicly, people would have trance states and then "religion" tried to codefy the experience.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_History_of_God

Margaret Starbird is also an excellent source.Originally a nun, she did research to prove the Bible and got converted. She feels that Paul, a relative of Herrod, helped hijack the Christianity Cult away from the bloodline of Jesus. They hid the fact that he was married so that there would be no one to claim the power.
http://www.margaretstarbird.net/

The concept of Sin has been hijacked by the Church to keep the people in line when it actualy means to be Off the Mark as in an archery term. Big difference to being sent to hell. http://www.theopedia.com/Talk:Sin

It's just my belief, but I feel there is alot of truth in the Bible buried beneath alot of dis-information. How can the Commandments say do not kill and then God demands that people smite for him? The Commandments, by the way, are believed to be lifted from the Egyptian Book of the Dead.
http://www.religioustolerance.org/chr_10cl.htm
"Some historians....have argued that the Ten Commandments originated from ancient Egyptian religion, and postulate that the Biblical Jews borrowed the concept after their Exodus from Egypt. Chapter 125 of the [Egyptian] Book of the Dead (a.k.a. the Papyrus of Ani) includes a list of things to which a man must swear in order to enter the afterlife. These sworn statements bear a remarkable resemblance to the Ten Commandments in their nature and their phrasing.....The Book of the Dead has additional requirements, and, of course, doesn't require worship of Yahweh."
The Book of the Dead was written circa 1800 BCE. 2 The Schofield Reference Bible estimates that the Hebrew Exodus from Egypt and the provision of the Ten Commandments on Mount Sinai occurred in 1491 BCE., some three centuries later. Thus, many religious liberals, historians, and secularists have concluded that the Hebrew Scripture's Ten Commandments were based on this earlier document, rather than vice-versa.

Much of the scripture is code for mystical rites.The Apple of the Eye is the Pineal. The tree is the spine. The snake the kundline. Only women can process a certain level of Cosmic Orgasm because of the way their brains are wired. Hence the Sacred Prostitutes and Trantric Sex.
The Return of the Sacred Feminine will put everything back on track.

Another good resource is John Allegro's "Sacred Mushroom and the Cross". A scholar of the Dead Sea Scrolls, he believed that the "body of Christ (Consciousness) comes from eating magic mushrooms. Having done so, I entirely agree.
http://www.amazon.com/Sacred-Mushroom-Cross-Christianity-Fertility/dp/0340128755http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Marco_Allegro

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Whistle a Happy Tune

The Final Mayan calendar steps to 2012: November 8, 2009 – the beginning of the Sixth NIGHT
http://www.calleman.com/content/articles/nov8_sixth_night.htm
The Hero's Journey : Summary of the Steps http://www.mcli.dist.maricopa.edu/smc/journey/ref/summary.html
What the Hathors have to say about all of this.
http://tomkenyon.com/hathors-archives
The Hathors offer a "Tune - UP"
http://www.box.net/shared/vx0odo5873
Little Girl Lost - Twilight Zone
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dxN8TrqidgA
The Big The Big Lebowski - Gutterballs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cz2ET5K6zY0
Bob Marley - Natural Mystic
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3VRGANguGQE&feature=related
Lauryn Hill - Ziggy Marley - Redemption Song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwNlQRvV-b4&feature=related
Carlos Castaneda Quotes http://thinkexist.com/quotes/carlos_castaneda/

Water
http://www.viddler.com/explore/ConspiracyFact/videos/73/

Friday, November 6, 2009

The Fairy Tale Cantina

This Fairy Tale needs a Bar.

This would be the Jukebox
http://www.955klos.com/article.asp?id=625820

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

My Friend is now a Ghost and came to say Goodbye

This past couple of weeks I have just been flooded with memories of my friend Richard. Then there were the little "pats" on my legs while trying to go to sleep. Finally thought to look him up on Google.
He had passed a month before. I hadn't seen him in 10 years. I was surprised by all the times he was mentioned...
"eccentric millionaire".

I first knew about him when I read an article in Inc. Magazine about 20 years ago. He was one crazy Dude, blowing up buildings in college and stuff to protest the war in VietNam... Friends with Gates, Kemp and the guy who ran Chryslar. My family thought he was my "special invisible friend" until one day when he sent his banker to my work to see if I needed a loan. What banker chases down waitresses?

I was going to write him a letter when I first read about him, but we traveled in different circles. I was a poor single mom at the time. 10 years later I met him while walking the track in my hometown. He had moved there when he had bought a small baseball team. We spent the summer walking circles while he told me stories.
One of his best was of his friend who bet $1000 that he could get arrested in 24 hours.The next day they had to bail him out of jail. To win, the guy had dropped $10,000 worth of $20s from the top of his hotel at noon. He got arrested for littering and inciting a riot.

So Richard came back in a big way last night. I guess since I had figured out what was going on he thought he could take it to the next level.
Cute Richard.
Now...Go into the Light.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Music, Health and DNA

COHERENT EMOTION on DNA by Greg Braden
As Gregg explains in The Isaiah Effect, basically time is not just linear (past, present and future), but it also has depth. The depth of time consists of all the possible prayers and timelines that could ever be prayed or exist. Essentially, all our prayers have already been answered. We just activate the one we're living through our FEELINGS. THIS is how we create our reality - by choosing it with our feelings. Our feelings are activating the timeline via the web of creation, which connects all of the energy and matter of the Universe.
Remember that the law of the Universe is that we attract what we focus on. If you are focused on fearing whatever may come, you are sending a strong message to the Universe to send you whatever you fear. Instead if you can get yourself into feelings of joy, love, appreciation or gratitude, and focus on bringing more of that into your life, you are going to avoid the negative stuff automatically.
You will be choosing a different TIMELINE with your feelings.
You can prevent getting anthrax or any other flu, virus, etc, by staying in these positive feelings, which maintains an incredibly strong immune system.
http://www.prosperityprincipals.com/articles/DNAhealth.php

Biological Effects of Scalar Acoustic Energy: Modulation of DNA
Glen Rein, Ph.D.
Conclusison
The results presented here indicate that ordinary music when converted into scalar, non-Hertzian energy, can resonate with human DNA. Rock and classical music do not affect DNA, although spiritual musical chants do resonate with DNA.
Two control samples in the absence of any treatment varied in their ability to absorb UV light by 0 to ± 1%. The results from one experiment indicated that classical music caused a 1.1 % increase in absorption and rock music caused a 1.8% decrease in absorption indicating no effect. Gregorian chants, however caused a 5.0% and 9.1% increase in absorption in two separate experiments. Sanskrit chanting caused a similar 8.2% and 5.8% effect in two separate experiments. Thus both types of sacred chanting music produced a large unwinding effect on DNA.

Resonare Fibris; music & Solfeggio frequency 417 Hz
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=22lbvdizaFU&feature=player_embedded
Gregorian Chant Benedictinos
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_MbDqc3x97k
Buddhist Chant - Shingon
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1evxMA7yYw&feature=fvw
Shiva Meditation in the Himalayan Caves
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXrl6vMStFk&feature=PlayList&p=2FD19F2B5B003C5B&index=0

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Free Your Mind and the Rest Will Follow

En Vogue
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fz3qDu0WemM&feature=related

Too much to think about....
http://www.GnosticMedia.com http://www.pharmacratic-inquisition.com/

The Dreams for the last two nights have been about updating my old model. There is a group of three Beths who are gently being retired and a New Set brought in. Each is confused and awkward. Each set balanced in their relevancy.

I think I'll bless the Four Directions and take a nice long soak and integrate all my loose parts.

The Wind is horrific today. The SandStorm coming off the Mesa has hidden Shiprock.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

All She Wants to do is Dance

The Ex is in town and I've gone into exile up at the Hill House. The kids are feeling guilty, but this is actually a treat. The view is great. I can see the airport where Emily and I used to go dancing to this song at the Skyliner Lounge. Emily's hair was at least a foot longer than the gal in the video. I was the quiet sidekick.
At one time she was on the cover of Easy Rider wearing nothing but fishnets and a gold sweater.

No. I don't mind hanging out here at all.
The last time I saw the man after ignoring him for 15 years I blew a fuse box. He is a prime example of what happens when you don't value your woman. My intuition is telling me his goal is to reunite. Not out of love but need.
I was hoping to avoid him but wouldn't you know it, as I stepped out of the car to deliver my granddaughter after school he had just arrived from his road trip from Chicago.
I said Hi and left.

So I'm just going to hang out here in the peace and quiet for two weeks, drink Gin & Tonics and listen to LA Radio...dancing in my mind like we used to do.

His being here must have inspired this dream.
He paid for his son's delivery from the money he made building a set of wings for a Pitt's Special . They were beautiful and could easily be considered art.

In the dream I had made Angel Winds. As I woke, they floated gently over the city of Los Angeles.

95.5FM KLOS
http://www.955klos.com/article.asp?id=625820
Don Henley
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wWyiMmdI2SI
Pitts Special
http://www.rjfalcons.com/images/01.jpg

Friday, September 18, 2009

Let's Get This Party Started

Interesting Dream Wednesday night.

Mr. S gave me a work order. I shyly said "I can't do this. Here, it is for you".
Mr. S shyly said "No. It is for you".
Then I saw a road being widened to accomodate the increased traffic.
So glad to see Mr. S in my dreams. One of my favorite people.

The Dream didn't click until the next night. I was laying in bed after watching the news.
Six Degrees of Separation.
The Dream of 15 years ago now made sense.
I better ask the Limo Driver if she is up for another Road Trip.

Pink
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wMGcod6f00o

Monique seems to have downloaded the specs for the work order.
http://ducielalaterre.org/accueil___EN.php

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

The Skellig Michael Dream

The Rabbit just showed up summer of 2010.
The globe by the Animas River (River of Lost Souls,NM) that I saw at least 5 years after the dream. I don't think it had even been built yet.









Sept 2011
I just thought to add this photo. A couple days after I had the dream a friend gave me an old Smithsonian to read and one of the articles was on Skellig Michael. This is an aerial view that I collaged.
Skellig Michael as a Portal
http://www.earth-keeper.com/skelligmichaelarticle.shtml
http://www.dioceseofkerry.ie/page/heritage/holy-places/skellig/
http://hiddenlighthouse.wordpress.com/tag/skellig-michael/
********

This makes no sense without the Dream.
I thought it was 18 months ago, but when I started thinking it was much longer. I don't do Time well.

I was living in New Mexico and my whole life dropped out from underneath me. My car, job and cat died. A friend near Chicago invited me to come and stay. Tommy had been my employee when I managed a cafe. He has less of a grasp of Reality than I do...tho maybe more...so there was a feeling of total freedom. It's stressful having to act "normal". LOL

Tommy seems to act as a "booster". If you have a drink, being around Tommy made you drunk. He shared his diary with me about his dreams of Iona a place that he had never been or heard of, yet he knew it's "history" and that of the Stone.
http://www.isle-of-iona.com/

I had the choice of the couch or his mini closet bed space. He had fixed his walk-in with a single bed that just barely fit between the walls. I didn't think I would like it because I'm claustrophobic but it was like going back into the womb. Totally dark, I got lost in Sleep. I never knew when I would wake up. It made my dreams Intense. They would continue where they left off and each dream took about three days to finish.

The Dream of Skellig Michael
Winter 2005.
I am in a square room with highly polished black stone floor. Suspended on the Right Wall is a woman in a Trance. Slowly she floats down and a Big Chair materializes beneath her. Then I am in that chair. To the left is the Planet Earth about the size of a beach ball hovering above a stone bowl. There is a patio beyond that. In the distance is a long lake with a mountain on either side as it opens to the Ocean. As the Sun on the Horizon cycles between the two, the sunlight sends a beam down the lake, hitting the Planet and then the Big Chair. In my right hand is a Staff and in my left I have a Gold Ball with a cross on the top. With great force I stab the staff into the stone floor and a Tree grows. The Ball falls to the center of the floor and starts spinning...creating a light show of a New Galaxy.
At the opening of the door people start to gather to see what all the fuss is about. The woman is exhausted. A White Ghost Horse rides up with the White Knight who lifts her up. He is translucent except for his hand. He takes her to a Healer in the woods of big trees. I'm me again sitting in a lounge chair in the sunshine when all of a sudden the world becomes massive, but it is me who is shrinking until I become a grain of sand. A Singularity which then becomes a White Rabbit going down a path to the Lake's edge. A Black Hawk is sent as a guardian.

In less than a week, my friend gave me a Smithsonian and there was a photograph of the place with the black floor...An island monastery off the UK. I knew nothing of this island before.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Skellig_Michael

Dream of the Green Jade
I am met at the beginning of a Path by a very ill woman. Her eyes were dark and tired. She sees a Jade Bean around my neck and holds it. "This is Beautiful. I am healed"
I follow the path that is so ancient a rut has been worn into the ground so that your head is below the horizon. After awhile it turns to the left and there is a Window that is shrinking. (Window of Opportunity??) Streaming thru the opening are animals and mythological characters. I'm curious but hesitant when a cinnamon bear appears. I hold on to his fur. I can feel it in my hands. And he pulls me along with the crowd.
Along the way, little groups of like minded beings have established little circular camps rather than continue. The Path is weaving into a woods. I look back and I am out in space and the Earth is a luminous ball. I can still see the window which is dark and growing smaller.
I look forward and the Bear says "Don't think. Just feel"
We get to a stream. It takes all my effort to cross because the air is very dense and it's as if I'm pushing against a Force Field. Once I get across I become afraid and want to go back. The Bear, scolding, "Don't go back. You can not return. To try to cross the river now will only get you stuck between realities"
I want to reward the Bear for taking care of me and I try to put a crystal around his neck. "NO! If I wear the crystal I become it's vibration and I will be stuck here and not be able to return"
I turn to continue on the Path which now leads into a Dark Forest. The Bear tells me it isn't time and that we have to sit along the bank of the River "to see and be seen"
Next to us is a box of Christening Booties. It is a tardis, small on the outside, but huge within. It's now time to leave and I follow the Bear.
He disappears and I'm confronted by huge eyes that fill up the sky. Old ancient eyes that look at me with disinterest. I try to radiate how smart I am, but they are not interest. About 5 different sets of eyes check me out. Until the path starts swirling.
The I found myself at the door of a cantina. Lord of the Rings meets Star Wars. All the unusual characters going down the Path with us have gathered to Wait.....
In RealLife I decide it must be important to find a Jade Bead. And a couple of days later I am coming down the stairs at my daughters and the Sick Lady is standing at the bottom of the stair. She has come from New Hampshire and a friend asked my daughter to help her out. I gave her the bead. She understood...She plays the Harp at Hospice...but was a bit taken aback.
Later my daughter picks up a movie, "The legend of Bagger Vance". I'd avoided it as golf doesn't interest me, and she thought it was a chick flick. It was neither. Bagger Vance (Will Smith) teaches Matt D. to be a better golfer "Don't Think. Just Feel"
The next day I go visiting and run into an old friend, Larry. I try to give him a crystal and he says "I can't take it. The vibration would keep me here"
A bit later I am at a friend's wedding boutique there was the box of Christening Booties.

I have come to the End of both dreams. Almost.

Dream of this morning
I move into a fish tank and the Water is the Universe.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Zero Point Entry

Dream
I woke up this morning to a series of symbols being "drawn". It was like one of those news crawls at the bottom of the screen and part of a bigger picture but I can't remember of what because I was focusing on the symbols.
I asked what it meant.
"Your DNA is being re-configured".

Sitting in the morning sun with my coffee I "asked" again what this all means. It seems that it was no accident that I missed my train in LA and had to spend the night at a friend's beach house. The photo of the beach was my view as I woke up from the couch. These are the Cliff Notes of what the Voice relayed.

The view of the beach house is tied in with the Two of Swords. The Ocean represents the UnConscious. I have the choice of opening the door to go to the Beach. The Door is smoky glass and is somehow connected to the Black Glass Table which is then tied to the dream of the Black Glass Floor of Michael Skellig.
The view of the beach is part of the triangulation of the two black globes...one in Berg Park, Farmington, New Mexico and the other at the end of Z St near Portland.

Of course, in themselves they have no significance. As symbols to the unconscious they are powerful.

I act as a symbol when I "remember" sitting in front of the door watching the Ocean. I act as a "sacrifice" when I allow energy to pour through me and activate these images as symbols that allows entry to an alternate reality. My action imbues the images with power that anyone else can access.
You can take the photo of the Ocean and use it as a Door for yourself.
Use the image of the table. "There is no place like Home"

Understand, I am not coming from Ego. I did not choose this Path, it chose me. However, I realize that before birth I accepted this life.
Walking this Path has been difficult. I have lost the World and gained my Soul. But to the outside I am seen as a lunatic.
I had a choice. I could have chosen a safer life. I could be "successful" right now if that is what I preferred.

Here is a link to interpreting the Two of Swords that fits what I am using it to symbolize.
http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/1519263/interpreting_the_two_of_swords_tarot.html?cat=11

Shifting from one reality to another???
http://www.cropcircleconnector.com/2009/knighton/knighton2009.html

PS The Voice suggested that I include the picture the Granddaughter took of me sitting at the table. I prefer not to. I'm tired and anxious. The Voice wants to make a point about the change in DNA later on.
PS 9-18-09 A week later I can not believe the change in my face and energy.

Ps 10-10-11
After reliving a past life of being sacrificed to the Jaguar Shaman, my face totally fell apart and is just now putting it's self back together. I look totally different. Better. Stronger. Indifferent.
http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2010/10/jaguar-shaman.html

Friday, September 11, 2009

Climbing Jacob's Ladder

Something has shifted. Things are different. You'd expect it to be more peaceful. At the core it is. But like a stone dropped in the pool, things are rippling out.
More flowers. Unexpected Moonflowers in the garden and little white Shamrock bells inside.

First, let me say, this is how I am interpretting things. It's subjective. And general. Looking for patterns and expected outcomes.

Energy has been rocking. I got nervous for a bit. Dissolving. My hands were on fire and I stuck them into the pool to dissipate the energy.
Exhausted. Blank. Drifting. Into the Void.

Things are now starting to bubble up. I keep running the verse through my head..."let those with eyes see". New sight. New perception. New opinion on what is "truth". Now somethings no longer "fit". What could pass before is now stopped at the gate.
Excuses are now seen for what they are. The coat is too small and is ripping at the seams. Lies are exposed.

Emotional distress rises to the surface as body pain. A new look in the eyes.

Layers of realities overlap. Matter fluctuates in and out. Door to the Ocean. Dare I open it?

A pebble here is a Mountain there. Hold the pebble in your hand and melt the snow off the mountain.

Frequency of Emotion
http://www.themagicofquantum.com/review.php
Mind Body Connection
http://home.ubalt.edu/ntsbarsh/opre640/MindBody.gif
http://www.amrashealingandhypnosis.com/images/hyp-mind-body.gif
Art Therapy
http://www.arttherapist.com.au/SandPlayandSymbol.html
Sympathetic Magic
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sympathetic_magic
http://sacred-texts.com/pag/frazer/gb00303.htm

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

"Why Positive Thinking Doesn't Work" @ Huffington Post

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/russell-bishop/why-positive-thinking-jus_b_278572.html

I skimmed through this and it must have made an impression cause it's still on my mind.

I get challenged for Positive Thinking. I am under a lot of people's radar because I don't have social standing or bank. I've been banished for being a pagan. Some of my niece's have been warned, "Focus or you'll be like your auntie". Usually I don't care. What about this article makes me care???

One reason I'm banned as a pagan is because I question religion. I research, make notes, compare. The more I learn the less I know. What do some people know that makes them so positive that they do?
I have more questions than answers. If Mithra is like Horus is like Jesus then what is Christ? How can we be sinners if God has made us in It's image? How can the Bible be the ONLY word of God if it starts out saying "Kill not" then goes on smiting people? What was Constantine's agenda? The Romans? The Church? And Paul? Who was the Black Madonna and did she make it to Avalon? What is so dangerous asking those questions?

The Flip Side is New Age. For $500 you can take a workshop that teaches you to be positive and ask for abundance... (so you can recoup your money). And why do bad things happen to good people?

All I can go on is my own experience.

The Kingdom of God is Within. I just had some little God Girlie argue with me that it wasn't in the Bible and then she prayed that I would forsake Idol Worship. I had thought this was a friendly pot luck?

I think because we are in God's image there is a Divine Spark within us. It's like our Web Connection. It's the reason the Church sponsored the Inquisition. If people could find God within there wouldn't be a need to pay the Church to intercede.
And the concept of Sin was used to keep people in line. See how successful it was? A third of the world is killing each other in the name of God. People struggle with their Sinful Self. So much wasted time.

We are Divine but also Human. We come to this Earth for lessons. We choose our parents and our life lesson and we birth ourselves into experiences that will program our Divine Hard Wiring.

For a long time I questioned my own birth. I came 18 months after my brother was given up for adoption. To say it was complicated is an understatement. I spent the first half of my life with severe self esteem issues and my life was one struggle after another. My life seemed to be on RePlay.
I was blessed that my Grandmother taught me Christian Science. What I got out of it was that I was perfect as Christ was perfect and that to mentally accept that drew perfection to you. Why was the conflict in my life keeping me from realizing that?

Then I read Huxley, Jung, Campbell, Lilly.
What I got was "Know Thy Self".
So I spent many years doing just that. I realized that I had to "reprogram" my wiring. I wasn't good or bad or a mistake or odd. I was just To Be...floating in God's Grace. Things were just things. If I needed something I could go get it, but it wasn't Me. As I got older I saw how my station in society changed, but still, who I am is not defined by that.
At one time I had a red sports car. It wasn't me, but it sure was fun. It wasn't good or evil, just fast. It didn't mean I had "too much" and when I went back to walking it didn't mean I had lost anything either.

Sin as an Archery Term
http://www.dyad.org/d07sin.htm
Religion in the Middle Ages
http://www.middle-ages.org.uk/middle-ages-religion.htm
Origins of Christianity
http://www.sanfords.net/Framed_pages/origins_of_christianity.shtml
Black Madonna
http://www.blackmadonna.co.uk/invitation-from-the-magdalena/heart-of-the-goddess/
Jung
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carl_Jung
Huxley
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aldous_Huxley
Campbell
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joseph_Campbell
Mary Baker Eddy
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mary_Baker_Eddy
KnowThySelf
http://www.lightparty.com/Spirituality/ManKnowThyself/ManKnowThyself.html

Chi Energy

Chi demonstration
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B2DXdFYDXCk&feature=related
Chi Yoga
http://yogawithkalidasa.com/the-basic-energy-circulation-technique-used-in-chi-gung-and-energy-flow-in-asana-practice-part-1/
Chi Energy in your Home
http://feng-shui.lovetoknow.com/Chi_Flow_Energy
Chi energy in the body
http://reikimatt.googlepages.com/theenergeticalbody.jpg/theenergeticalbody-full.jpg
Mandala
http://www.sourcedesignsonline.com/goep/about_mandala.html
Sand Mandala
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6b7iro-qZ4
Mandala Coloring Pages to print out
http://www.kidscolorings.net/coloringpages/category/mandalas.html
Dr. John Lilly: Through the Center of the Mandala
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P9xCwM9osW0&feature=related

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Music for a Sunday Afternoon

Eyes Without a Face
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKmldYSDJaM

Sunglasses at Night
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d_HlTGzkKeE

Urgent
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V4Di5fRQH_4

I Want to Know What Love Is
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0j82al7MjtQ

Shock the Monkey
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bo9riZYUpTw

Heaven Knows
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DtWSdJeLnv0&feature=related
or
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IvyG7E-qf0o&feature=related

Here Comes the Rain Again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJEQBVLqGFU

Arc of a Diver
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cq6pZZYgGJk

Invisible Sun
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTpXRsqztb0

Why Does my Heart
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fqLvbpcsPj4&feature=related

Spirits in the Material World
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1cDrcCVm4Fs

She Talks to Angels
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1a76FeV2-Dw

Knocking on Heaven's Door
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JIR7ZPIIHQw&feature=related
or
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CV6ETVQgob0

Everybody Have Fun Tonight
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BoXu6QmxpJE&ob=av2e

Live and Die in LA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nM9CE2L7HTE

Virtual Insanity
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4JkIs37a2JE&ob=av2e

Cosmic Girl
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C5IhGvAiRdo&feature=related

Takin' it to the Streets
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G54lfxiid_w&feature=related

Sailing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VMkIuKXwmlU

Invisible Touch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cK3N2DC3Fds

Oye Como Va
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LpPb2cVswlI

Mama I'm Comin' Home
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wfy4ez1YKb4

Crazy Train
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gz2fWwdvhOY

Iron Man
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O1-KOjlh2qo

Dream On
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UUY7Gy3k07g

Tears in Heaven
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JR0JmKpJeuQ&feature=related

Amazing Grace - Steven Tyler
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zjogu3Uk9Fs&feature=related

Amazing Grace - Elvis
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B3XdXEJEI4E&feature=related

Friday, September 4, 2009

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

School's Out

School is out and I'm keeping myself busy while the kids are playing in the pool. We have the kids who need a place to go today. On days like this being the stay at home Cookie Grandma is a hot commodity. We started the morning with homemade buttermilk pancakes with white peaches.


Brain Wave Frequency
http://www.lunarsight.com/freq.htm

Thoughts are Waves
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8WZohD-ttw4&feature=related

"Sphere"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pRdPs7tLZ_A

Black Lodge Singers Twinkle Little Star
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxm4Euz_Auc

Close Encounters
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tUcOaGawIW0

Phil Collins In the Air Tonight
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0dyFuqmofg

Alpha Brain Waves
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ale6AZ_nPvs&feature=related

Nakai Canyon Reverie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1DWwRah2loM&feature=related

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

What I know, What I think

Mystery of the Piri Reis Map




Setting History Free: Graham Hancock & David Wilcock




Mind Altering Drugs in History and Why the Church Banned them on Discovery Channel




Easter
http://www.christiananswers.net/q-eden/edn-t020.html

Blue Apples
http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/merovingians/blueapples/blueapples_05.htm

Solar Gods
http://www.sanfords.net/Framed_pages/origins_of_christianity.shtml
http://paganizingfaithofyeshua.netfirms.com/parallels_chart.htm

Constantine
http://www.columbia.edu/cu/augustine/arch/sbrandt/nicea.htm
http://www.themystica.com/mystica/articles/g/gnosticism.html

Precession and Global Warming
http://www.aloha.net/~johnboy/orbitalV.htg/variance.htm

Earth's Frequency
http://www.geocities.com/davidjayjordan/EarthsFrequency.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schumann_resonances

Kingdom of God is Within
http://bible.cc/luke/17-21.htm

Pineal and Light
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pineal_gland

Charging Water with Light
http://www.geniyyah.com/2007/02/22/charging-water-with-life-force-energy/
http://www.spiritofmaat.com/archive/nov1/cwater.htm

Color Healing
http://www.colourtherapyhealing.com/

Healing Sound
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R5olEMigUQw&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mxGxxuCite0&feature=PlayList&p=293BDE52DF826981&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=6
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d5p_U8J0iRQ

Archetypes
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Hero_with_a_Thousand_Faces
http://www.folkstory.com/resources.html


How sacred sites and cathedrals are influencing human evolution.
http://scienceforlife.net/gifts/pressure%20points.pdf


Sumarian Words of Religion and Life

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Falling Down the Rabbit Hole

It's 2am. If I try to go back to sleep I'll only fall into the Rabbit Hole.

I'm back in New Mexico, but left parts of me behind. I recognize this place, but I don't remember it. Parts of me have not returned and it is not a comfortable feeling.
In my sleep I seem to be connecting the dots. I keep "hearing" Triangulation and get the sense that something is connecting three points on many different layers. In the dreams I am still in Portland and in Los Angeles and in New Mexico. Doorways between locations are being opened.

I'm having a hard time wrapping my mind around all of this. The right side of my body is "agitated". Intense tingling is coming up from my foot and going out my head giving me quite the headache.

I find that the best symbol for these dreams are crop circle patterns. While going through images I got a chill when I found the last one (of links below). I got a flash that each point was set by doing a Blessing Prayer to the Four Directions and creating a Circle of Protection.

The Three Points are being connected by Heart Energy. Yesterday I found this at PWR. It's part of a manual for Hotel Managers. It must be a sign of the times if Corporation is starting to use Woo. LOL!

The Body's Heart Energy Field
To get an idea of the kind of guest experience that can be created you need to know a little of what science has discovered about the human heart and its electromagnetic field. By applying this knowledge you can create a guest experience of a completely different nature. If you have a family, you should apply it at home as it creates a very loving and caring spirit there.

A guiding principle of hotel training is the obsolete belief that conscious awareness originates in the brain alone. As a result, training methods and systems focus on training staff to carry out SOPs expertly as it is believed that this will create optimal performance and happiness in the guests. But recent scientific research has shown that the heart plays a particularly significant role in the process of conscious awareness. ...

Science now understands that the heart is a highly complex system with its own functional "brain". Research in the new field of neurocardiology shows that the heart is a sensory organ and a complex center for receiving, processing, and sending out information through neurals as well as in the form of electromagnetic energy. The nervous system within the heart (or "heart brain") enables it to learn, remember, and make functional decisions independent of the brain's cerebral cortex. In addition to the extensive neural communication network linking the heart with the brain and body, the heart also communicates information to the brain and throughout the body via electromagnetic field interactions as well as beyond it.

The heart produces an electromagnetic field that can be detected several feet from the individual. It is an energy field that extends around the body and can be seen with the eye with practice. People feel the electromagnetic energy vibrations given out by people consciously or unconsciously, and this fact is very important when creating the guest experience. The electromagnetic field of a person who exudes love, care, warmth, and compassion, for example, gives out high frequency vibrations while staff who are just doing their job of carrying out SOPs will give out low frequency energy. Low frequency vibrations do not make the guest experience feel special at all while high frequency vibrations do.

A left brain approach to training will create low frequency energy. The processes involved in creating the typical chain hotel SOP-Customer satisfaction create low frequency energy. The "heart brain" of the guests will register this low frequency energy, and the guest experience will be perceived in line with the heart's processing of the energy received. The same happens if the staff member's energy field is sending out high frequency energy, which creates good feelings in the guests. Fortunately, the frequency of the vibrations can be changed according to the focus of the training.

The heart generates the body's most powerful and most extensive rhythmic electromagnetic field. Compared to the electromagnetic field produced by the brain, the electrical component of the heart's field is about 60 times greater in amplitude, and permeates every cell in the body.
The magnetic component is approximately 5,000 times stronger than the brain's magnetic field and can be detected several feet away from the body with sensitive magnetometers.

Research shows that information about a person's emotional and spiritual condition is communicated throughout and outside the body via the heart's electromagnetic field. The rhythmic beating patterns of the heart change significantly as we experience different emotions and become stronger in spiritual values, such as love and compassion. Negative emotions, such as anger, boredom, unhappiness, or frustration, are associated with an erratic, disordered, incoherent pattern in the heart's rhythms. In contrast, positive emotions, such as love or genuine heartwarming care, are associated with a smooth, ordered, coherent pattern in the heart's rhythmic activity. In turn, these changes in the heart's beating patterns create corresponding changes in the structure of the electromagnetic field radiated by the heart. The more you develop the spiritual values of hospitality in the staff, the more the electromagnetic field will give out the kind of energy that makes the guests feel happy.

Most people think of social communication solely in terms of signals expressed through language, voice qualities, gestures, facial expressions, and body movements. However, there is now evidence that a subtle yet influential electromagnetic or "energetic" communication system operates just below our conscious awareness. Energetic interactions contribute to the "magnetic" attractions or repulsions that occur between individuals, and also affect social exchanges and relationships. Moreover, it appears that the heart's field plays an important role in communicating physiological, psychological, and social information between individuals.

Experiments have found remarkable evidence that the heart's electromagnetic field can transmit information between people. Scientists have been able to measure an exchange of heart energy between individuals up to five feet apart. They have also found that one person's brain waves can actually synchronize to another person's heart. Furthermore, when an individual is generating a coherent heart rhythm, synchronization between that person's brain waves and another person's heartbeat is more likely to occur. These findings have intriguing implications, suggesting that individuals in what is called a psychophysiologically coherent state become more aware of the information encoded in the heart fields of those around them.

The results of these experiments have led scientists to infer that the nervous system acts as an "antenna," which is tuned to and responds to the electromagnetic fields produced by the hearts of other individuals. Scientists believe this capacity for exchange of energetic information is an innate ability that heightens awareness and mediates important aspects of true empathy and sensitivity to others. Furthermore, it has been shown that this energetic communication ability can be intentionally enhanced, producing a much deeper level of nonverbal communication, understanding, and connection between people. Can you see the implications here for the hospitality industry? It also completely invalidates the current concept of 7-stars.
These discoveries, which are really little more that confirmation of some Chinese traditions and techniques, should have every corporate office member leaping up and down with joy, ..."

Dream of the Red Rings
Two Rings are being "nailed down". There are two, bright red rings that are being pegged together. The rings are thick and heavy like the collars that connect huge pipes. I "get" that the pegs represent aspects of the rings and now the last peg is being "nailed down".

Triangulations
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Causal_dynamical_triangulation
http://www.searchwithin.org/observer.htm
http://www.wowhead.com/?quest=10269
http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&defl=en&q=define:triangulation&ei=57yLSuqNMpLuswP00P27CQ&sa=X&oi=glossary_definition&ct=title

Crop Circles
http://www.cropcircleconnector.com/2009/Woodborough/Woodborough2009.html
http://www.cropcircleconnector.com/2009/rollrights/rollright2009.html
http://www.cropcircleconnector.com/2009/morganshill/morganhill2009.html

Sacred Heart of Jesus
http://www.tldm.org/tldmstore/SacredHeartPicture2.jpg

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

My Favorite Sites

My Merry Christmas Gift to You


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A Page of Interesting Links about the History of Religion and how it's been Compromised


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Sept 2011


More cool links than you can shake a stick at: http://linksbygeorge.blogspot.com/
This will blow your mind http://www.hiddenmeanings.com/dna.html
The Golden Ball..Jungian symbolism of a Ball as Self and wholeness...which actually has something to do with the above http://www.jungiananalyticpraxis.com/goldenball.htm
Hugh Newman video on Earth Grids and "sacred twins" who are mentioned in the above two links http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTWvaGzA1Oo
My Navajo roommates turned me onto Sherman Alexi Fiction. I found this on CarlyGoogles which is another source of crazy info http://carlygoogles.blogspot.com/2009/08/i-want-to-see-picture-of-sherman-alexie.html
Tiny apartment transforms into 24 rooms http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lg9qnWg9kak
Some very odd houses http://flavorwire.com/208633/the-worlds-strangest-houses/13

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Holographic Universe http://www.crystalinks.com/holographic.html
The Church suppresses Divine Music http://www.lightbridgemusic.com/supp.htm
Tritone http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tritone
Stone Puzzle of Rosslyn Chapel http://www.philipcoppens.com/rosslyn_meridian.html
Timeline of Secret Government Projects http://mindcontrolforums.com/time-lineofsecret-government-projects.htm
YouTube Sounds made by Earth http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGNqLsCmbwY
YouTube Frequency that repairs DNA http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tgMQOAWeVs0&feature=related
Lemures get High http://www.neatorama.com/2008/07/25/lemurs-find-a-natural-high/
Charging water with Life Force Energy http://www.geniyyah.com/2007/02/22/charging-water-with-life-force-energy/
Zeigheist Movie http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/

King Arthur http://bestoflegends.org/kingarthur/tristan.html
Radio Astronomy Images http://images.nrao.edu/
Plant Database http://plants.usda.gov/gallery.html
PermaCulture Institute http://www.permaculture.org/nm/index.php/site/Student-Work/
Global BrainPaint http://brainpaint.com/globalbrain.html
Global Consciousness Project http://noosphere.princeton.edu/
Real News http://whowhatwhy.com/
Joan Ocean swims with Dolphins/whales in Hawaii http://www.joanocean.com/
Sacred Geometry Alchemy http://www.dnaalchemy.com/numericcodesymbols.html
Healthy Mind by Daniel Pink http://www.danpink.com/
National Gallery of Art http://www.nga.gov/
Tuning Forks for Sound Therapy http://www.toolsforwellness.com/tuning-forks.html
Spiritual Healing Links http://www.healingyoursoul.com/links.htm
Metaphysical Links http://www.dnaalchemy.com/Metaphysical_Articles_Index.html
Hubble http://hubblesite.org/
Nasa Solar Gallery http://sohowww.nascom.nasa.gov/gallery/
MicroPhotography Gallery http://www.nikonsmallworld.com/gallery.php
Satellite Imagining http://www.satimagingcorp.com/gallery.html
High Speed Imagining http://www.visionresearch.com/index.cfm?sector=htm/app&page=gallery
Mineral Gallery http://www.galleries.com/
Mind/Drugs http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/dxm/dxm_health1.shtml
UltraMind http://www.ultramindclub.com/
Foodnetwork/recipes http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/alton-brown/chocolate-truffles-recipe/index.html
Gnostic Christianity/Sophia http://www.essene.com/Gospels/GnosticAndSophia.html
Sacred Texts http://www.sacred-texts.com/
Danny Many Horses (from Aztec) http://www.tombstone1880.com/ancientechoes/
KSUT http://www.ksut.org/aboutksut.html
Healing Properties of Gemstones http://www.jewelrymall.com/therapy.html
Contemporary Shamanism http://breakingopenthehead.com/what_is_shaminism.htm
Mysticism http://biblestudy.churches.net/CCEL/U/UNDERHIL/MYSTICIS/MYSTICI9.HTM
Magna Mater http://www.magnamaterproject.org/it/history.htm
Color Therapy http://www.annemeplon.com/colors.htm
Phi-Sound Healing http://www.greatdreams.com/sound.htm
Green Building Magazine http://www.greenbuildermag.com/
Martha Stewart's Natural Cleaners http://www.nydailynews.com/lifestyle/2009/03/20/2009-03-20_clean_green_martha_stewarts_tips_for_mak.html
Homemade Beauty Recipes http://allnaturalbeauty.us/hbr_mainpage.htm
ReLiv (for my Power Shakes) http://www.reliv.com/MY/EN/Reliv%20Now.html
Water-The Great Mystery (forum thread) http://www.freedomcrowsnest.org/forum/viewtopic.php?t=80884&start=0
Crystallinks http://www.crystalinks.com/ezine.html
The Daily Show http://www.thedailyshow.com/
Jimi Hendrix - Rare 83' http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JGhWBc_hzoE
Baby Mine-Dumbo & Mommy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7JvL2ap3Cg
World Tree http://www.inannareturns.com/gita/krishna31.htm
David Wilcock-Changes in Solar System/2012 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nfr_Hj9LOac&feature=related
Celestine Insights http://www.celestinevision.com/
Power vs. Force http://www.interfaith.org/forum/book-power-vs-force-11819.html
Horoscope http://www.cainer.com/
Phil Collins-Take Me Home http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-4754362499006196582&ei=EjVxSujlI572qAOMitWJCA&q=phil+collins&hl=en

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Dreams

The Dreams have been intense again...

For about a month before I left I was having dreams of 3s. Then after I arrived I had this dream:
There were three banana shapes made out of webs. Then they came together to form a globe of web, the top part still under construction.
When I saw this crop circle it made me thing of this globe if seen from above.
http://www.cropcircleconnector.com/2009/bishopcannings/bishopcannings2009.html

Several nights were of going in circles. At each "quarter" was an oval dome. It was as if it had a clear shell and encased blobs of colored "stuff". Each time the colors/shapes/amounts changed.
Later in meditation when I asked what this represented it was explained that they were sort of the brains of elementals of the four directions. The brains changed because each circuit brought new information and they were evolving. The brains were connected to a web that then transmitted this new information. And the web was sort of explained to be the roots of the World Tree.

I've gone to the ocean with a friend. But it is presented as a graph. There is a long beach. Then a section of light blue waves with sunshine. Then the waves become darker and darker, creating the perfect storm. If the "beach" represented the length of the country, then the friend stood about the same place as where he lives. I took it to mean that while the economy looks calm and sunny, there are black waves coming in right behind.

There is a boy with very white skin and very black hair. He collapses. I'm shown that where he hit his head blood is collecting under the skin. Later that day we heard that Michael Jackson had died.

I'm working on a project with groups of people. I'm traveling down an enclosed brick path. There are windows to the right and rooms, one after another to the left. Each has an ongoing project with busy people. The path sort of meanders.
Finally I get to the end of the path and to the door. I say good by to everyone. There is celebration. I leave while they tie up loose ends. Out the door is a large, sloping lawn of brown grass. I've been so busy that I haven't had time to take care of it. It is sunset and at the end of the lawn I see a towtruck taking my daughter's car. I'm mad and go to get the guard dog to confront this guy. The dog is wrapped in rusted chains. All that is showing are his paws and nose. I unwind him and we march down the hill.
There are a group of mafia bodyguard types in suits. But their faces are black whisps of smoke. I demand to know who is in charge and the body guards drift apart revealing a husky mafia boss kind of guy sitting in a chair. Evil, arrogant.
I scream "Give my daughter's car back!!" as I stare into his odd yellow eyes. I sense that he can't look me in the eye and turns his head with fake bravery. I realize that I am the more powerful one here so I continue "And return ALL my children's cars...with an apology!!!" as there is an unending row of towtrucks hauling off cars.

Two nights ago:
I have to leave my house. A man and a child are helping travel to my new one. I don't see their bodies but get a sense of them. The man says that he knows an old lady who might let us sleep on her floor rather than sleep outside while we make this journey.
The foyer is large with a grand staircase and there is a long, curving display case lit up with little villages inside. They weren't made but "evolved" and must be very old as they were covered in moss.
We have to wait at the door for the woman to notice us. She has to check us out before we can come in. She asks all sorts of questions to see if we are worthy. I expected a living room but it is a disjointed space. I notice old cafe bar stools...and then I realize that everything is white...bright, glowing white light.
Then the woman says "Go ask your son" and I go thru a door to a blackened room where a young man is leaning on a bed sobbing...tho all I can see is his back...which is sort of spotlighted from above. I touch his shoulder. His skin is pale and very soft. His back was thin and lean, much smaller than either of my boys. There is a scar at his waiste to the side.
I ask "What is the matter?" somewhat hysterically.
He turns and throws himself into my arms. I can FEEL him as I wrap my arms around him but I still can't see a face. He sobs "Oh Mom! My child has fallen..." and then it is as if someone turned off a switch and everything was cut off.
And even tho it was 2am I called my sons to see if they were OK, which they were.

Why I like SNL

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kVTMVwvOEV8